looking too far into the future....oh well!

I've been thinking a lot about AFTER December lately. It might be because it's supposed to snow tomorrow and it snowed a little yesterday that I can justify this. December is a big deal this year. I am STOKED. First off - Cody will be finished with all of his classes at BYU-I. This means all he has left is an internship!!! He and I were trying to figure out finances and future stuff today and this is what we have so far (this changes weekly - sorry :) ) As of this morning, Cody will apply for an internship at Micron in Boise. He's worked there before and it helps that his Dad works there. If he gets the internship then I will start applying for jobs at the end of October. The only little bump in the road, which is awesome :), is the fact we're going to Hawaii for Christmas! Cody's grandparents have a time share or something like that down there and Cody's parents got us plane tickets. That is our Christmas/Birthday presents for maybe the next 2 years? ;) haha. So - we'll be down there for a week. After that we're free to go. My concern would be if I got a job offer they wouldn't hire me because of the trip....I guess we will see! Cody's internship will last until April and then he is officially a college graduate! Cody really wants to work for Boise City police deparment but they are currently not hiring. SO - we were thinking well we might as well stay at Micron until they do start hiring? In the mean time I will be working, preferably a job that is not PSR....but if there is absolutely nothing else I can do I will do that again. Because we would both be working...maybe we could buy a house!!!!!!!! I'm reaaaaaaaaaaaally excited about that. AND I am going to have health insurance .... somehow....and maybe we can have a little one!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!! I think we're going to have to have a girl first because the only names we can agree on are girl names :) haha. Anyway - too far ahead, but exciting to think about none the less.

Reality Check - crap style

So I've had time to think and clean and think and clean for a little bit today and it's been nice. The only down fall is when I get to do this I become a little to pessimistic about life and people.
There is a fantastic analogy that I've learned since doing social work. Here it is: A person goes outside and sees a huge big fat stinky pile of cow crap..they take a shovel.......flick the crap straight up in the air.......they don't look up......the crap falls on top of them......and they wonder WHO DID THAT?! Clearly - that person is refusing to recognize their role in why they stink and are covered in nice warm poo.
Now, I've definitely showered myself in this mess before ...... blamed others for my stupid choices.... asked "Why me?" ....and so on and so forth...but I'd like to think I've learned a tiny bit from it - and that I've learned a lot of these seemingly common sense things in years previous. What I'm feeling annoyed about is how truly naive people can be about the way the world is and what they're doing to make it rough for themselves? How is it that there are people still being showered in smelly glory and they are getting married, have kids, or just old enough to figure out most common sense problems and resolving them?
FOR example - the "deserving" people. I really am bothered by people who feel like they are entitled for things to go their way when they want it to - RIGHT NOW - and get upset when it doesn't. It's not that often that we have NO idea what is going to happen if we add A and B together. Usually we know what C might be and we prepare for it. But no - the deserving choose to look over reality and then complain about it until they DO get their way (grr) or they give up and expect everyone to feel bad for them. Now i'm not bashing everyone. Everyone at one point feels like they are deserving, but when it is a pervasive issue that just boils my blood.
So - to finish my rant, look up. If you plan on shoveling poop any time soon decide before hand what you're going to do - if you MUST throw the crap straight up in the air PLEASE be prepared to step aside, no you're not in a special bubble. Hopefully your well thought through decision will save you from looking and smelling foolish - and instead of being deserving you'll learn what being responsible is.